••as for the title: friends who’ve known me for the past decade will often say “you were such a punk back then”. i usually respond in agreement, knowing that at least in the cut & dry, self serving, egotistical, provoking sense of the word— i could relate. in the last 10 years i’ve become less of a punk in that way only because of an unlearning of what i thought Love was, both with a person & God. i accepted love as a choice rather than a feeling. that loving requires a very painful & ongoing death of ego.. & if love is willing the good of another above my own— the ego has to die.